im scared to tell you what i think. Im scared to tell you all my secrets i know you can tell im holding back. you want to be in on this too. my "teenaged agngusih" seems intriguing to you. You think you can relate to what i feel you want to be involved. You seem to think theres more depth to me then there truly is. I cant seem to express how much you will never know me not completely. You cant understand some things ive been through. what im going through now. the fact of being torn in two into some thing i have and something that will never happen. you dont understand how much i hide to protect you. Quite frankly youve never felt like this before or maybe you have but its different for each person who feals like this
cosmic throw up
what have i done?
i dont know whats happening to me anymore the more i try the harder i fall no way am i going to climb out of the hole ive dug for myself what am i doing?
I thought i had made the wrong decition when i stopped loving you but that couldnt have been because im realizing i never stopped loving you and i dont think i ever will. They say absence makes the heart grow fonder. Do you really have to be gone this long to prove your point? i dont know how im going to pull off not caring about you anymore. Im so scared what will happen will you write me, will you call me, will you care? im not even sure that come three months from now that you'll even feel the same way. Im so scared that subcontiously im waiting for you. Contiously i know your not the one the facts are all there and i cant deny it. I need to start thinking about my future my life who i want to marry what would good traits in a husband be? you dont seem to meet my essential criteria plus it cant be you were too close to love one other that much ? im not sure im holding out to see what the world offers. Im too young to love this much what ver happened to pretty ponies and slumber parties? Im not old enough for the way we feel and think about each other. Tell me you think so too. im not sure. I'll have to wait this out, maybe when i grow up this love wont hurt so much. I doubt it but its worth a shot.
growing pains
These are the words I want to hear the ones that comfort me and tell me everything that's going on is ok and there nothing more then little bumps in the road. I'm scared and I know I'm not the only one. I know I'm not the only one whose stomach turns over every time the future is brought up. Or the only one who cries at the though this is the last year we have all together. Its unfair to think that all the smiles, the jokes, the sadness and tears we all shared will only become distant memories as new ones fill our minds and the daily task of just keeping up with the "real world" fill our every day. I revert to our child hood commercials of I don't want to grow up I'm a toys"R"us kid. How did I grow up so fast? When did we stop being little kids and end up fully-fledged teenagers on the go? Wheat happened to our three years before senior year? Were we to busy looking forward to enjoy what was happening now? I wonder if this conveyer belt of growing up speed up these last years of mischief and youth. It sounds like were dying but really were just growing up sometimes I think which is actually worse. But I look to those who have braved these grounds of teenage adolescence and see that they have survived which means we can too. I just need to be comforted. Some one tell me its going to be alright. I just need to hear the words that will make everything alright again.
I HATE IT HERE
They want me to be more independant but every choice i make is the wrong one. Every word i seem to udder is offensive and rude. How did i go from the child that everyone loved to the person everyone can not stand? what made me this way? I can no longer wait to break these child hood bonds and run fast and run far i no longer fit in here im the square peg.I ahte being here and i hate what it's done to me.I cant sleep anymore im riddle with fears, aggrivation and the feeling of over whelming saddness. I only seem to make matter worse but i dont know how. i slip up and cant remember how to make things right again. It scares me that i might not ever be loveavle again.I still have to wait to run. When ther moment is right im out of here for good. My teenage angst seems to consume me here thats why i have to get out and soon.
sick
I have all these people telling me all the great things about me i need something real. I dont see myself as they do. They seem to think im someone im not.they think i care about petty things and i guess i see how they could have gotten such a misconception. But they dont see me as i do. My inner termoil seems to be eating me from the inside out im scared.its no longer about just growing up. Its about how i cant see the end of this tunnel and wonder if im going to be left behind.All i seem to get is " your so funny" "audrey your so talented"" you have so much potential"none of that seems real. i feel like im some one else poseing as this person they think i am.they havent realized it yet but im not making it out alright. I put smiles on thier faces and call it good.but i just want to lay down for a really long time until i feel good too.
senior year
senior year approches
im scared this wasnt supposed to come upon me so fast?
where have the last 16 years gone? I dont know but this year has gone by too fast too soon. i dont want to be the oldest i want this summer to never end. I want senior year to never end im to sacred. i feel sick everytime i think about my plans after senior year i get sick. phsically and emotionally.im losing it.i really think im losing all control over all my feelings. i just want everything to be fine again
Im looking for the u in us
I dont know who to turn to. Your not the same as before although i like to think you are remember i used to ask you all the time for your advice your word was like law to me. Now its a seems like a miricle if we can get a conversation in that dosent feel strained or akward. I miss the old us
we used to flirt all the time even though we knew all we'd ever be is friends. i miss our old questions the new ones just remind me that were no longer the friends i thought we once were. I miss you. I dont know who to turn to with my problems any more. I remember when i liked that boy and he didnt like me back and you said any boy who couldnt see what a great catch i was that they wernt worth my time. I see now what a great catch you are but its too late. Ive missed my chance if i ever had one. I should have seen it but i didnt and now its to late.i wish icould talk to you about this. I miss you. i miss the old us. what happened?
death
Have you ever wondered if you died if anyone would really notice i mean would people actually care after too long? I was thinking about it i mean really would would actually come to my funeral? yea i know this is all morbid but what would you wear and who would come?what pictures would they show? Who would speak and what would they say about you? would they mention all the things about you that you think are great? would they put all your accomplishments in? i was just thinking. But if i do happen to die soon i want everyone i know to be there and i want all the pretty pictures of me shown not any of the nerdy ones. and i'd wat all my best friends to speak and i'd hope they'd say all the things that they say to my face. ok i think im done with this thought.
sad
im almost a adult and that scares me in so many ways soon i will have to make my own desicions that could and will effect my entire life. its sad but i dont wanna grow up im not ready for this. i mean who do they think i am ?come on i cant even match my socks to each other none the less pick out what i want to do for my whole life. why does life go by so fast? i remember some crazy times and yet it seems like only yesterday when my first tooth came out im growing up to fast and so is everyone around me i dont get it.im scared i feel like im fighting the current and im not winning. they shouldnt intrust me with my own safty im not sure its wise. What can i do?in the great words of kacie cross nothing feels real anymore. just brief bursts of clarity.
I miss feeling like me.
hey people
ive figured that if i write people will come so yea.....
not much happens to me so... tell me whats happensing with you guys. and while i wait for your responces heres a little somthin somthin from kc's blog
http://quizilla.com/users/Drudanatia/quizzes/What%20Weird%20Quote%20Are%20You%3F/
Audrey eiffler isnt dead she dosent write just often
Hey there welcome back its been a while. ok its been like six months ive had plenty to write but not enough time. any way heres my newest obsession URBAN SCRAMBLE a game of wits speed and smarts its like a sacvanger/ treasure hunt i want you to visit the website k! http://urbanscramble.tk
go there be hip. i'll talk to you kids later
hey its been a while but its been good i broke up with beav it was great thats about it It didnt really hurt it was just kinda akward weve broken up dozens of times but this time i think was the last straw. i dont think we'll ver get back together. OH well its all for the best. plus i think i might be crushing on some one new any ways yeayea i know geez audrey slow down but its for the best that i move on.
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Life's not fair! It's never been fair, but while adults might just accept that, I know something's gotta change. And it's gonna change, just as soon as I become an adult and get some power of my own.
Your element is Earth. I hate to say it but you are down to earth. Stubborn and loyal. You tend to want to nurture others and you are the one person friends always come to for awnsers. Without people like you others would be flying over the edge because, whether you know it or not you keep a steady beat to your life and will end up where you want to in the end. There is a sureness about you that is hard to match that draws people to you. No matter what happens the Earth keeps turning.
audrey learns how to make mittens
last monday nov17 2003 audrey eiffler learned how to make mittens and saterday nov 22 audrey finised her first kniited scarf which also happens to be the first thing audrey has every knitted
Impravajava
oh my has it been that long since ive written! oh well yes on the first night we placed 4th it sucked but it was all in fun then afterwards we went to cheasle mattson's house for dan skelton's birthday party on the second night we placed 3rd we tied with beav's team! but before this all happened this guy named brain i called him paul because i can never remember his name proposed to me then later i saw him in the parking lot and he was all like i'll see you tonight! but really creepily.then before friday's show he let me in to the school and i was all hi paul and he's all like seeing you reminds me of somthing i need to go to my car so he left and i started talking to steve-o and then 10 mins later here comes paul with a rose in his hand and he hands it to me all nonchanlantly and then he said i hope i didnt creep you out today iwas like a little (but really in my head i was screaming somebody save me) then he went into this stroy about his dad propsed to his mom by asking"so when are we getting married"and apperently they've been married 23 years then i told bhim that i would have hugged him if i knew him better which was a total crock then he spend most of the rest of the night following me the second night he keeped complemnting me and glaring at boys who talked to me or touched me all was well after saterday night it was laurel's birthday party now my best north friend is 17 then on sunday i got my young women's medalion all on the same weekend before thanksgiving!
oct 29 2003
this year has been filled with new adventures new friends new obseesions and the rekindling of old obsessions ive taken up being everyone's grandma playing disney SORRY during lunch insted of chess) im learning how to knit and bake ive given up on being purosfully dumb ive fallen in"love" and fallen out of love ive learned class can be fun ive also learned there really is no place like home. No matter how annoying your siblings can get or how mean your parnets can seem its nice to know that you have a safe warm bed to fall asleep on and a family that cares thats all i have for now. tune in next time boys and gouls
it how i got my name!
Which brings me to this story. It is the story of a man called Johnny Lingo. Johnny Lingo was a popular Polynesian who was looking for a bride. He went to the island where a young lady named Mohana, lived. Mohana was Johnny's childhood friend. For Mohana's father, Mohana was of little value because she was dumb, lazy, unproductive and ugly. So when news spread in the island that Johnny Lingo was coming to offer dowry for Mohana as his bride, the natives laughed and said that if Mohana's father would ask for two cows as dowry, Johnny would haggle and pay only one cow. If the father asked for only one cow, then Johnny would just give the cow's horns. Mohana's father pushed Mohana to marry Johnny, but he felt that he could not demand a big dowry for her. Much to everyone's surprise, Johnny promised to pay the father an unheard of amount of eight cows for the girl he loved. This was the biggest dowry ever given in the island! Thus, Mohana and Johnny got married and left the island for quite a time after their wedding. When they returned to the island, no one recognized Mohana because she became a beautiful woman. The father, after seeing Mohana's transformation, felt that he should have demanded a bigger dowry. He should have asked for more than eight cows because Mohana was worth more than this. When Johnny was asked by an elder as to how this happened, the former answer was that the respect and love that he gave Mohana brought out the beauty in her. Johnny knew that his offer to pay eight cows as dowry for Mohana made her aware of her importance. Johnny's love for her made her realize that she was indeed a bright, valuable and beautiful woman.
HOMECOMING !
west salem varsity foot ball won! they won! in over time and every one rushed the feild i also got mooned by taylor boswick! It was one of the greatest nights in west foot ball history. And on homecoming! what could have been better then that? I also got on the waiting list to grab Abe kahnamooian's a**. then on saterday serria kacie katlynand i went to the dance together serria dreesed up in normal people's clothes kc katlyn and i dressed up as pirates i was more of a gypsy kc was more of a witch and katlyn was definatly the wench then we went to serria's house to get pics but that fell though so we went to my house and all was good.
hey everybody i do hate devo and abe oh yea and joe. they suck hard core!
this week's boy.
hold my hand because i wont hold yours tell me you think im pretty because i dont. Tell me that this game we have between us isnt just a game tell me thats how you really feel about me.But you have to take the first step because i never had to take that step myself so i dont know how.So tell me that you love my and i'll love you back i just need to know do you love me.......
Happy 16th Birthday to me.
Tommorrow is my sixtenth birthday. For months now ive been counting down to what should be the happiest day of my life so far but my mom isnt here for the first time in sixteen years to make it even worse my father wont be here for most of the day either. I dont know if i'll have a party ive never had to plan my own birthday party. Not that this is the only thing bothering me but at the end of this month will be the one year anniversry of Travis's death (R.I.P) My brother is also leaving at the end of the month to go to PSU although ive always said i wanted to be an only child its times like this that remind me i dont even know my brother very well. i guess i can stop time from going on so Happy birthday to me.
the places youve come to fear the most
Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and covered with a perfect shell,
such a charming beautiful exterior.
This is one time
that you can't fake it hard enough to please everyone or anyone at all.
And the grave that you refuse to leave
the refuge that you've built to flee
the places you have come to fear the most.
Buried deep as you can dig inside yourself,
and hidden in the public eye.
Such a stellar monument to loneliness.
Laced with brilliant smiles and shining eyes
and perfect makeup but you're barely scraping by.
hahahahah they see into my soul. A GARAGE-GURL. Youre into loud music, hot guys and wild fashions. Youre most at ease when youve got all your mates around you and you like to party. Boys are a game and youre always on the ball because you make sure youre always number one.
Your virtues: Confidence, fun nature, sociability.
Your flaws: Loudness, jealous tendency, need for attention.
boo ho
"I'm afraid we have some bad news. Please, you might want to stay seated."
Mark your calendar or Palm V. You can expect to die on:
January 17, 2066
at the age of 78 years old.
On that date you will most likely die from:
Cancer (41%)
Drowning (12%)
Third Degree Burns (8%)
Suicide (8%)
Heart Attack (7%)
Homicide (7%)
Alcoholism (6%)
Interesting stats from the DeathTest:
15897189 people have taken the DeathTest.
Of those, 55% were female and 45% were male.
The average life expectancy of test takers is 67 years.
10% of test takers have hairy nipples.
4% have had team sex.
8% work in the porn business.
And 325355 people claim to have leprosy.
I must have taken this test wrong or something
Damn, J-Lo! You are...
84%
dateable! Attractive and confident, witty and charming, a healthy ambrosia-based diet... you're wanted in the 48 contiguous states, you slayer. Call me. Seduce me. Make me a man (or woman.) Not only do you know how to turn a guy's (or girl's) engines on, but you also know how to oil, lube and rotate it. You put the "elation" back into "relationship," and the "night" back into "one-night stand."
summer
alot has happened this summer and now that it is coming to an end i am sad but over all happy on the things ive accomplished the friends i made the clothes ive bought and the way ive grown up. it seems weird to look back just a few months ago and see how diffrent i am now this summer was the first summer i realized a few things fell in love (not lust) partyed harty and learned that in the end if its ment to happen it will i hope you all have had enriching summers as well and and a new school year opens i greet you all again
Tu solo en mi photos estas You are the
*Have fun, but carefully*
Innocence
MEANING: You go to parties, but you don't drink. You mess around with guys, but you're not a slut about it, he's always your boyfriend, but you are still a virgin. You never drink or do any type of drug. You figure you can have just as much fun without out it.
why do i like nerds?
As far as you're concerned, there's nothing more attractive than a guy who's got a good head on his shoulders. Especially if that head is overflowing with enough knowledge to fill an entire World Book CD! And we think that's cool. Imagine all the deep intellectual conversations you'll have with your Einstein -- not to mention all the fun you two can have doing your homework together! So how do hook up with brainy boy? Sign up for AP Social Studies and spend lotso quality time in the library. Oh, and joining the Chemistry Club couldn't hurt, either!
Best Guy Friend Match: The Comedian.
Having a Comedian as a buddy is great -- he'll keep you giggling until soda comes out of your nose. But, he'll leave the deep, soul-searching convos to you and your boo.
Watch Out For: The Jock.
You like big brains, not big biceps. He only math this guy does is count the number of reps he does when he lifts weights! Plus, he probably used to beat your crush up in grade school.
Movies You Should Rent Together:
A Beautiful Mind, Cube 2: Hypercube.
Star Signs You Should Date: Taurus, Cancer.
Star Signs You Should Avoid: Aries, Aquarius.
Your Celeb Crush: Tobey Maguire, Ed Norton.
Essential CD: Coldplay, A Rush Of Blood To The Head.
Snack: BBQ Soy Chips
I also speak sign launguage
This saterday is the church dance at the beach im excited not only that but the guy im infatuated with will be there oh man im excited! mabye this time i'll ask him to dance! insted of waiting for him to ask me! well anywho here's a new quiz I'M OSCAR THE GROUCH! (and I speak Spanish, too!)
SCHOOL?
BIG NEWS!!!I just got a letter that says that i have been pick to be an Student Ambassitor meaning that i'll get to spend 18 days with kids from around the world in Australia Exciting I know. I called them to see who nominated me but they said they dont keep files on that but im pretty sure if it was any one that it was mrs. m Also my birthday is in 30 days Exciting i know ! but that also means that school starts in less than 30 days oh well i miss seeing my boyfriends oh yeah and youse guyses too well thats all for now enjoy the rest of your summer!!!
Ode to Travis
We thought we were invincible. That the world was our oyster. It took a hard lesson to find out that not everything is what it seems. Why did it have to be you? Nights and days I cried after you were gone why couldn’t it have been me? Heaven must have wanted you back I guess. I was selfish to want you to stay here with us. We were so close if we were any closer you would have been my brother. I remember the nights you’d spend the night at our house just haing out. All I wanted to do was hang out with you. Until that one fatal day you just had to get a ride home. I miss you and when i think of you i can only cry i went to what would have been your graduation but you wernt there. I went to a wedding and thought how you wouldnt be there for mine. I thought of the collages my friends had applyed for and were excepted to yet you applyed for none. I miss you and want you to know that i love you and always will. I want you to know that no matter what happens Iwill always consider you my brother.
Who lives in a pinapple under the sea...
Hap happ happy 16th birthday to my favorite spongebob obsessed friend amy hubert i love ya kid good luck on your driving test! I hope you have many happy birthdays to come! i hope you enjoy the fireworks i got you and that scooter
Edgar lee masters Beat this D ana my monologe is better than yours any day so PPLLLLLLLLLLLLLLH
REVEREND WILEY advised me not to divorce him
For the sake of the children,
And Judge Somers advised him the same.
So we stuck to the end of the path.
But two of the children thought he was right,
And two of the children thought I was right.
And the two who sided with him blamed me,
And the two who sided with me blamed him,
And they grieved for the one they sided with.
And all were torn with the guilt of judging,
And tortured in soul because they could not admire
Equally him and me.
Now every gardener knows that plants grown in cellars
Or under stones are twisted and yellow and weak.
And no mother would let her baby suck
Diseased milk from her breast.
Yet preachers and judges advise the raising of souls
Where there is no sunlight, but only twilight,
No warmth, but only dampness and cold—
Preachers and judges!
"Did my heart love till now? For swear it's sight. For I never saw true beauty till this night..."
For all of you who truly know me you know i have an obsession with shakespears work not really with him but what if i was to tell you guys i might be able to get tickets to A midsummer nights dream the play not the movie! i was so excited i almost peed my pants! so for all of you out there in internet land here's my favorite prelude to any of his plays "Two households, both alike in dignity,
In fair Verona (where we lay our scene) From ancient grudge break to new mutiny,
Where civil blood makes civil hands unclean From forth the fatal loins of these two foes
A pair of star-crossed lovers take their lives"
Go kacie its your birthday your gonna party like its your birthday
(happy birthday to you happy birthday to you happy birthday dear kacie happy birthday to you)cumple anos feliz cumple anos feliz feliz cumple anos a kacie cumple anos feliz !!!!! to my wonderful blonde,Pranx fanatic, pirate, artist, weezerette. I salute you for achiving yet another birthday for your collection. And i hope you achive many many more!!
im sorry it has to be this way...
I don't regret the time we’ve spent together. I don't regret it at all. I don't regret you, How could I? You saved me from my fall. Every day I loved you more. So what happened to my love you ask? I couldn’t stand not having all of you. Yet I didn’t want to bear the scorn of rejection. I have had enough brutal rejections to rip apart my heart more times then I could repair. You say that you could never hurt me like the others in the past have but can you really promise that? I wish you could. I wish you were the only person in the world I needed and I was the only one you needed. That’s not the case. You cannot protect me from the world around me. I have become so attached to you but I have to sever the ties. Although I love you we have to say good-bye.all of you. Yet I didn’t want to bear the scorn of rejection. I have had enough brutal rejections to rip apart my heart more times then I could repair. You say that you could never hurt me like the others in the past have but can you really promise that? I wish you could. I wish you were the only person in the world I needed and I was the only one you needed. That’s not the case. You cannot protect me from the world around me. I have become so attached to you but I have to sever the ties. Although I love you we have to say good-bye.
The dangerous lives of Alter boys.(william Blake)
Tyger! Tyger! burning bright
in the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Could frame thy fearful symmetry?
In what distant deeps or skies
Burnt the fire of thine eyes?
On what wings dare he aspire?
What the hand dare seize the fire?
And what shoulder, and what art,
Could twist the sinews of thy heart?
And when thy heart began to beat,
What dread hand? and what dread feet?
What the hammer? what the chain?
In what furnace was thy brain?
What the anvil? what dead grasp
Dare its deadly terrors clasp?
When the stars threw down their spears,
And water'd heaved with their tears,
Did he smile his work to see?
Did he who made the Lamb make thee?
Tyger! Tyger! burning bright
In the forests of the night,
What immortal hand or eye
Dare frame thy fearful symmetry?
Whoo hoo i am on my way to heaven! The Dante's Inferno Test has sent you to Purgatory! Here is how you matched up against all the levels:
footloose(chicken)
Where have all the good men gone
And where are all the gods?
Where's the street-wise Hercules
To fight the rising odds?
Isn't there a white knight upon a fiery steed?
Late at night toss and turn and dream of what I need
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the end of the night
He's gotta be strong
And he's gotta be fast
And he's gotta be fresh from the fight
I need a hero
I'm holding out for a hero 'til the morning light
He's gotta be sure
And it's gotta be soon
And he's gotta be larger than life
Somewhere after midnight
In my wildest fantasy
Somewhere just beyond my reach
There's someone reaching back for me
Racing on the thunder and rising with the heat
It's gonna take a superman to sweep me off my feet
Up where the mountains meet the heavens above
Out where the lightning splits the sea
I would swear that there's someone somewhere
Watching me
Through the wind and the chill and the rain
And the storm and the flood
I can feel his approach
Like the fire in my blood
Travis
I miss you. I never noticed till now what your absence does to me Its as isf I never knew how much you ment to me until you were gone.My soul feels as if im missing my other half. I wish I could still talk to you. Now i can never take back all the hurtful things i've said and done. I was foolish to think my acid tounge couldn't wound you in such a profound way.Or that you would never resent me and one day wan't nothing to do with me.I wish i could turn back time. To a time before i hurt you to a time in which you still loved me.I miss you now more than ever and more than i could ever express.Since i cant turn back time. I just want to say im sorry and hopefully one day you'll forgive me.I can only wish that its one day soon.
Queen at its best
Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide
No escape from reality
Open your eyes
Look up to the skies and see
I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy
Because I'm easy come, easy go
A little high, little low
Anyway the wind blows, doesn't really matter to me, to me
Mama, just killed a man
Put a gun against his head
Pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life had just begun
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama, ooo
Didn't mean to make you cry
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow
Carry on, carry on, as if nothing really matters
Too late, my time has come
Sends shivers down my spine
Body's aching all the time
Goodbye everybody - I've got to go
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, ooo - (anyway the wind blows)
I don't want to die
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all
I see a little silhouetto of a man
Scaramouch, scaramouch will you do the fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning - very very frightening me
Gallileo, Gallileo,
Gallileo, Gallileo,
Gallileo Figaro - magnifico
But I'm just a poor boy and nobody loves me
He's just a poor boy from a poor family
Spare him his life from this monstrosity
Easy come easy go - will you let me go
Bismillah! No - we will not let you go - let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go - let him go
Bismillah! We will not let you go - let me go
Will not let you go - let me go (never)
Never let you go - let me go
Never let me go - ooo
No, no, no, no, no, no, no -
Oh mama mia, mama mia, mama mia let me go
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me
for me
for me
So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh baby - can't do this to me baby
Just gotta get out - just gotta get right outta here
Ooh yeah, ooh yeah
Nothing really matters
Anyone can see
Nothing really matters - nothing really matters to me
Anyway the wind blows...
DOCTORS!!!
yesterday i woke up and couldn't move my neck with out major pain like when you have shin splints but worse and in my neck i woke up this morning still hurts but i can now move my head slightly to the left my dad thinks its a pinched nerve and says if it contiunes i might have to go to the doctor and everyone knows what happened last time i went to the doctor if you dont i'll tell you ive always hated doctors and a while before that we had been learning about hepititus so the doctor comes in and of course i wouldnt go in alone so my mom was there and he asks me small chit chat questions as im waiting and the first thing i blurt out is dont touch me i could get hepitius he wasnt offened my mom looked like she was going to pee her pants laughing classic audrey for you.
Ghost of You and Me
What am I supposed to do with all these memories?
Haunting me everywhere
No matter what i do
Watching the candle flicker out
In the evening glow
I can't let go, when will that night be over
I didn't mean to fall in love with you
And baby there's a name for what you put me through
It isn't love it's robbery
I'm sleeping with the ghost of you and me
Seen a lot of broken hearts go sailing by
Phantom ships, lost at sea
Well one of them is mine
Raising my glass I sing a toast to the midnight sky
I wonder why the stars don't seem to guide me
The ghost of you and me
When will it set me free
I hear the voices call
Following footsteps down the hall
Trying to save what's left of my heart and soul
Watching the candle flicker out in the evening glow
I can't let go
When will this night be over
oh me oh my
saterday was an eventful day i went to the bite with jack lucas and my cosin we ended up wandering downtown i saw beav became beav's girl friend got over my crush on beav all in all i'd say it was jammed pack full of action i also bought my very own copy of footloose!!!! then on monday i ran over my father's ankle with a miniture car that wasnt so smart ahhhhhhhhhhhhh anyways my hands are tired so if any ne wants to tell me any thing my email is mormanite_woman@yahoo.com
i feel empty
Impossibly alone yet always surrounded by people. I am empty inside why doesn’t any one notice? They see my vain existence but don't seem to care how deep my soul really flows. They know not what they see all they see is a shallow me who thinks of nothing but boys and is funny , witty, energetic and full of stories. What about the true me? That is hidden beneath all of this is that me just to wither and die? Why can they see what their jokes do to me? I’m in shambles my sordid affair with life is over. I am lost in this world of make up and perfume trying to be one of the fold but standing out so jaggedly. I long to not care or fit in. I will die slowly without them noticing. I long to love the same things they do they seem so happy. How can they not see that I am just masquerading as one of them? I everyday wait for one of them to revel me as a poser as a fool. Until then “did you see that boy?”
oh yeah...........
so i went to my aunt's pool party and we watched jaws with the youth group from her church it was ok i was afraid of most of the girls they all reminded me of shelly walthers ew
but after the movie and about 3 hours of being anti socail this guy that i had been scoping out the whole party comes up to me and is all like ''like the movie?" normally i would have told him my top 5 fav movies in order of which is the best but i was like yeh.....did you? i felt so dumb then he's all like why didnt you get in the pool tonight cant swim?...i was like i can swim so then he's like prove it so i take off my sweater and let him push me in when i got out i walked up to him and said see i can swim! so we started talking he's almost the male version of me.he was one of the last to leave he turns back and he asks me if im going to go to church with my aunt i was like why he sruged and walked away now that guy could have been uber cute or ive been here so long that anyone looks good right now.
Duh..
I've been writing back and forth to this guy and the only reason im telling you guys is cuz i think i have a crush on him and i kinda hinted it to him in my last email. what do you guys think i should do?
longing for what is lost i have found my self You are a Sorceress. You are a very mysterious individual who enjoys a solitary existance. You are also very beautiful in a dark sort of way.
Dedicated to my mom
Its hard to smile when there's nothing to smile about
When death is mere footsteps away but your just praying he'll give you one more day
When who you love most is fading fast like sand through a time glass.
You cry and plea to no avail.
All you can do is pray.
When you feel like no one is listening.
When you feel so small.
No one seems to care whether you live or die.
All you can do is pray.
Hard times are upon you.
All hope is lost.
The world you live in is in shambles.
All you can do is pray.
The father above hears you.
In so many ways he cares about you.
He wants you to come to him in trouble.
All you have to do is pray.
I love canadians YOU'RE BARELY HYPER AT ALL. You're serious...lighten up a little. working and getting ahead in life are the most important things in your life. It's ok to laugh at stupid things once and a while. You're just a boring old turtle who can't get up.You are also extremely cute and no one can resist loving your cute turtleness
Un named love........
Stuck in this purgatory thinking only of things I have done wrong and things I will never be able to accomplish. Then I remember all my memories of you of us. Nothing fancy just two good friends. I always wanted there to be more between us, I guess you never did. I loved you like I had loved no one else it hurts me to see you go. It hurts to see you love another. Over time these wounds will heal and I once again will allow myself to love again. When I hear you say you loved her it felt like my mystical Eden my secret garden had burned to only smoldering ashes. You were oblivious to such a fact. Still stuck in purgatory I will heal one-day I will love again. Hopefully soon we’ll be good friends until the bittersweet end.
Missing you
Every song reminds me of the good times we had together
Every couple kissing reminds me that I've lost you for good
Every boy reminds me that you were the closest to perfect I will ever get
Every time the phone rings I hold my breath and hope its you
Every love letter you wrote I read over and over again hoping you still feel the same
Time slips away from me as the cavernous hole between us grows larger
Every minute that passes by could be a minute that we spent together I'm just to stubborn
To apologize
Infinity
Ours is a temporary kind of love a lust that masquerades as love
and is believed to be.
I wish I could say that I love you
and that there will always be a friendship so strong between both of us.
We both know that it would be a bold faced lie.
I cant say that it wont hurt either of us when we are no longer together,
because it will cause both of us insurmountable pain for at least a little while.
Although we could lie to ourselves and each other by parading around with a new "love" lets not it will only add to each other's pain.
I say this to you while we are still together so that we can both enjoy our time
I hope you all the best and hope you wish me the same.
We are the same or have grown to be
so I know if I say "I love you" it will only make the wounds of this "love" even greater. Hold me now while we still can.
So that in the bitter days of the aftermath it wont hurt as much.
I want you to know
I care about you and hope
you always know you are special.
breaking down the wall
its hopeless i dont care this much
i needed you yes ill admit it
but i wont stick around to have you beat me with insults
i loved you ill admit it
but your not worth me isolating my self
i was hopelessly in love ill admit it
but i couldnt live with myself if i stayed with you
you were my all my world
but thats done.
belifs
i belive in a lot of things one of them being that you sould never wear dirty underwear on your head its a punishment not a fashion but when something rattles me it rattles my least sturdy belifs such as who im currently in love with or what does that really mean? Recently i was rattled by none other than megan bulen she said some thing to the extent of that i had a crush on some one that i have blatenly and out right said i have dispised when i have come to think about it do i? has all this yelling been me covering a Sub-continuos feeling trying to revel itself?then i think if its covering its true feelings its for a reason. Never doubt your self continuos. so doughnuts eh?
TO Brother Palmer!
this one is deticated to Brother Palmer! Who lead us on the fourth year hike!! I'm a little acorn round sitting on the cold cold ground everybody steps on me that is why I'm cracked you see! I'm a nut I'm a nut I'm CRAZY. Called myself on the telephone just to see if i was home asked myself out on a date. Pick me up at half past eight. I'm a nut I'm a nut I'm crazy took myself to the picture show sat myself in the very front row put my arm around my waist got so fresh I slapped my face. I'm a nut I'm a nut I'm crazy! Coca cola came to town Pepsi cola shot him down Dr. pepper fixed him up now we all drink 7 up I'm a nut I'm a nut I'm crazy!
SHE SURVIVES CAMP
hello hello, hello again!!!! I just got back from camp and guess who has emailed me? nick!!!! yea I gave him my email I never excepted him to use it!! anyway I just got back from camp and on the fourth year hike guess who lead for almost the whole way? thats right me and lector!!!! i was so excited! !proves fat people like me can walk up and down mountains using a compass !!!
D.C to fit you life
I'm missing you babe, I never sleep Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak & this bottle of beast is taking me home. I'm cuddling close to blankets and sheets You're not alone & you're not discreet. You make sure I know, who's taking you home. I'm reading your note over again. There is not a word that I comprehend, except when you signed it "I will love you always & forever" for now I'm gonna hear the saddest songs, and sit alone and wonder, how you're making out, but as for me I wish that I was anywhere with anyone making out I'm missing your laugh, how did it break? And when did your eyes begin to look fake? I hope you're as happy as your pretending. I'm missing you babe, I never sleep. Avoiding the spots where we'd have to speak. And this bottle of beast is taking me home. Screaming infidelities. Taking it's wear.
regrets
i regret falling in love with you although im still in love. you seem to have become everything i ever wanted in a guy. but now i dont want it any more. why cant i stop loving you? It hurts seeing you do these terrible things to yourself. can i stop you? no. have i tryed? yes. your a split person just like me so why cant i see whats wrong?
secret friend
today i made you cry. The impenatrable force of your barriers to all of man kind was crush as a few simple words made you feel inferior until some one showed me the true you and i saw you from behind the mask you also have become mutilated past recognition so have i but i havent allowed to to see me in my true form i hope you havent become attached to who you think i am because i will only let you down. You are my secret friend that i can not tell the world about. I am not ashamed of who you are
Dash remixed
This Ruined Puzzle.. This ruined puzzle is beige with the pieces all face down so the placing goes slowly. The pictures of anything other than it's meant to be. But the hours they creep, the patterns repeat. Don't be concerned, you know I'll be fine on my own. I never said "don't go". I've written a note, it's pressed between pages that you've marked to find your way back. It says "Does she ever get the boy?" But what if the pages stay pressed, the chapters unfinished, the stories too dull to unfold? Does she ever get the boy? This basement's a coffin I'm buried alive. I'll die in here just to be safe. I'll die in here just to be safe. 'Cause you're gone I get nothing and you're off with barely a sigh. I never said "Good-bye" Does she ever get the boy?
warning signs before you crash
girl you have tresspassed on my terrortory he is mine!Your pitiful attempts make me just want to jeer at you! your not compatition your pitiful what could he see in you you are the dirt below me. You cant dance even though your on the dance team your the village idiot but you cant see that we were never friends so dont act like im hurting your feelings like ive killed your soul. You mean nothing to me and even though ive moved on from him to some one else he's still is my terrortory so BACK OFF.
work it work it
I got to strut my stuff in front of my now FAT exboyfriend i got to see my old gang drink slurpees and dance in the back of a car with jesse whois one of the nicest guys you'll ever meet and i got to hang out with hillary and chon while hillary belted out songs from the body guard is this heaven? i think it is and every one thought my ensable was tre cute i also got alot of complements for looking faboulous then every one execpt chon got really excited about the prospects of me going back to north!!!!!! Well thats all for now
danananana
we have no practice thursday or friday but we have a tourney sat. im going to job shadow with the man of my dreams at my favorite school in the world while i skip school on friday can it get any better cuz if it can then im going to crap my pants! i might even get the courage to tell him i like him!! exciting i know!!! Nobody get your hopes up because i could just be like ddddddaaaaaaaaaaaaaapppplllllhhhhhhhhhhh
funny
One Sunday a pastor asked his congregation to consider giving a little extra in the offering plate. He said that whoever gave the most would be able to pick out three hymns. After the offering plates were passed, the pastor glanced down and noticed that someone had contributed a $1,000 bill. He was so excited that he immediately shared his joy with his congregation, and said he'd like to personally thank the person who had placed the money in the plate. A very quiet, elderly, saintly widow shyly raised her hand. The pastor asked her to come to the front. Slowly she made her way to the pastor. He told her how wonderful it was that she gave so much and asked her to pick out three hymns. Her eyes brightened as she looked over the congregation, pointed to the three handsomest men in the building and said, "I'll take him and him and him."
cupid
Cupid, remove thy arrow! Is it fated your aim more precise with dove than hawk? Out, out I say! Visit me no more, inflicting hopes and dreams upon my threshold yet, kept behind locked door. In days long since past, I learned the truth, still I wake your muse once more. Is there not more worthy prey than this uncompromising soul of mine? Now, leave me, within withering cocoon, shattered pieces of my broken heart rest ’til night, where, within my spirit finds it’s desire. If by random chance, or design, these meager words resonate with within a heart broken such as mine, or betel psychotic ramblings of demented mind, neither weep nor, pity or condemn these wistful thoughts of mine. Rather, read between each line to find, one heart so ripe and fair, that even Cupids arrow could not contain, the love that lingers there. Ashes float in a gentle wind, at the break of day, the moon a shadow in the west; where soft coos of love remain to stay.
so scared
you guys will never guess who came to my house on a whim with hilary yes thats right the prince of my infatuation the one the only Chon madrigal AAAAHHHHHHH and he came into my room and sat on my bed i know God loves me he has blessed me the past few days im am to the breaking point of joy every time i think of someone or somthing it just shows up like every time i want to hear 21 ? by 50 cent it automattically shows up i think of chon and he just shows up Its love my people I Audrey am infatuated with Chon Madrigal
love at first sight?
Could you see what you did to me making my heart stop making me I felt like a fool a schoolgirl playing your games could it be that you saw the light in me? Was it true was there a light in you? Where you the hidden one were you hiding behind the mask? Will you come out from behind the mask?
ooohhhhhh long distance
well i have to say i thought id never see the day when i would actually want to join long distance but that day has come and i look forward to it because that guy is everting i have ever wanted in a boyfriend up to now he's cute, he's uber sweet, he's athetic, he's funny , he laughs at all my jokes , myfriends approve of him he can drive he loves all of my ideas and supports me and did i metion he has his own car ah so to this bo
GAME TODAY AT WALLACE AGINST NORTH IM SO EXICITED AT 430 BE THERE OR BE SQUARE!!!
If only it could be...........
if only you knew that i drempt of you what whould you do? if only you felt the same way about me what would i do? if only we were the same but oh so diffrent what would happen between us? If only you could know me would my hopes for your love come true? tell me now if you could be my man tell me i would understand all of our differences make us uniqe are my diffrences what you seek?
boy toy?
Does any one know all the words to the captin planet song? yeah so i kinda have a boyfriend but not really and i also like this guy who unfortuneatly who my friend has liked for a while but i wont make a move on him for that reson
poems from the heart
Hi sorry i havent written in a while but my life is in shambles i have a new poem for you Here goes I didnt need you before. this i never wanted you like this. is it stange fantesy to belive you could ever want to be with someone like me? How could i imagine such fantesy? you'd never love me.What do she have that i dont? Im funny arnt i? Am I grotsque? Why dont you love me Why cant i go back to not needing to be with youi hope i get over this infatuation soon
Through the looking glass
who am i to be funny? who am i to make them smile?Can they see me through my mask? Or have i be mutalated past recognition? its funny all they've ever seen is the mask i hide behind. Only you have seen the true me and you liked me for me you told me to show them but im scared what if they dont like me for who i am? only you know. Will you keep me a secret? locked away from the world or will you revel me for who i am? Who am i to be funny? who am i to be loved?
homestar mad libs
No, seriously. I'm a pretty Chessed person. But I saw this one cheese last week and boy was it cheesey. This Toaster oven guy was at Butt ville and he started pooping poops. I was like, 'What a big poop! You're pooping poops.' He told me to stop fishing him. I pooped on his shoes.
why i cry
Yesterday was a day like any other till I stared to cry not tears of guilt or tears of glee only tears of suffering for you and me .We used to be best of friends now were not and it hurts me to no end that were suffering and not together I gave you 6 of the greatest years you took them in vain every time I saw you I should have run away there used to be a fire in your eyes that’s gone we used to have a passion so strong its gone . I used to wait for you by the phone but no more now I’m free, free to be free to do what I please but I’m not sure any more We were great together but what’s done is done it wont change for no one its not your fault it’s not my fault people just fall out of love all the time Today I saw your best friend I asked him how you were but really I was screaming in side how could I hide the pain not being with you not that I loved you any more its just that the time I spent with you made me happy more each day what happened? Did you wake up one day and realize all we did was done everyday? I guess because that’s what happened to me.
sleep can do that to ya
Funny thing is I never dreamt, not of you not of us. When I saw you it never occurred to me that one day I would see you differently, or that one day I’d want to be more than friends . That day has come and I am scared of what the future holds and what will come to be. I’m scared so hold my hand and lead the way the future is just a day away so hold my hand and lead me to what will be eternity. I’m scared of what the future holds for me.
my secret crush!
as a friend you were always there for me when i needed you i never had to ask you knew just what to say and what to do one day i saw you differently in a light i never thought would be yours i was in awe of how i couldnt have seen it beforeLIke that time when i liked that guy and i found out he didnt like be back and you said it was his loss and i was way better than him.Rember the time when you liked that girl and you confided in only me. now when i need advice on my crush can i really turn to you until im sure i wait your to good to ruin so ill wait until you love me too to show my true feelings for you
???????????
Dosent the fact that j_lo and eminem and other pop stars like them that write songs about them selves being grounded and humble cancel out their being grounded and humble? If you have any interesting facts or opions email them to me at hottkitty2@yahoo.com that is all
love hate love hate
hello hello finally writing again what a miricle i do have to say this is one of the saddest moments in audrey history i was asked out by a boy i have no romantic feelings for im in love with one of my good friends the guy i used to have fellings for i hate and im also being accused of being in love with some one i hold distain for people say he likes me and i say gross!! that is all for now
MEGAN
You guys have to visit this site geez megan i didnt know you were in to that http://megan.bulen.wasarrested.com/S-Or/salem/masturbating/F
the sad way of leaving
capiton oh caption this is your caption wheres my co caption oh yeah she jumped off the plane oh i do miss having a cocaption especally now that i forgot how to man the controls oh well might as well jump ship as well.that is all
oh ice cream lady
*there once was an ice cream lady (ice cream lady)she made me smile and when she'd come around the block she gave me ice cream (ice cream ice cream) that lady was nice she always supplied me with ice cream (ice cream )oh ice cream lady now that your ggggooone i see i was wwwwrrroonng to have ever leeeeeetttt yooooooooouuuuu gggggggoooooowoowowow oh ice cream lady (ice cream ice cream ice cream)
telemarketer
i talked to a very good friend of mine today her voice brought tears of joy to my beautiful eyes i have to say math with martino is the fuunyest thing ever for the last 20 mins of class he spent telling us jokes normally his jokes are about his fat mom swaeting gravy and his cat taking the s.a.t.s today he talked about my favorite subjects harrasing telemarketers ahh will they never learn to not call when your busy? hahhahhahhah so in honor of my friend and crazy martino harrass a tele marketer today that is all
oh kacie
KACIE i miss you i had a dream about you last night you and serria were standing by your locker and i was on the balcony above it walking to the art room and i glanced down and started screaming out kacie!!! kacie !!!! and you looked up and started dancing like you did for our commercal it went on but from there on it was boring also the rest involves corn dogs (CCCCCCCOOOOOORRRRRRRRNNNNN DDDDDDDOOOOOOOOOOOGGGGGGSSSSSSSSSS AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHH so yummy) any way call me well chat do somthing whach the rest of ghost world eheheheheheheheheh you know the number that is all
B.Y.U Ever i come
Johnny lingo had a cow he trade for an ugly wife Johnny lingo married now he'll be sorry all his life hhehehehehehehehehehehehhehehhehehheheheh
reversal
why do you hate but do not love why are you so quick to judge? Is it out of spite or unopened feelings or is it because i left you while you needed me? You ask why wasnt i there when you needed me the most? I laugh and try not to roast where was I?! where was I?! where where you? when I needed you the most? Dont look at me with hate and spite in your eyes, dont say that I was capable of lies, when you know very well that night when you held me and said you'd never leave my side ( that is all)
i am daria
the south will rise again or so i was told by one of these stupid westies if my life was like a tv show id say it would be lkie daria i have a overly active sibling an artsy werid friend and boy do i hate lawndale i mean salem!1 i also have other werid phyco friends and my friend from other tv shows pop up all the time such as sponge amy regular pants and the pete from pete and pete
para ti
Soy tuo en corazon y en alma .porque no me amas ¿ es por que amas a otra es por que soy tu amiga esta bein mi corazon es tuo Para sempre. soy tua. no me tenenes que amar pero voy a qedar me aqui asta eres mio. Asta eres mio para sempre aqui qiada sola donde no ai sol me voy a qedar aqi esperando te.
anylize this
i belive in dreams and so far you are the reacurring person in mine. Its funny in my dreams your perfect and in my dreams you always stay 2 feet away its funny because in my dreams you wear the perfect outfit the white tuxido with white top hat and cane its funny because you wear your crazy converse i should know because in my dream im not me in my dream i get to be butiful and you look at me. You see porclin skin and crystal blue eyes and blonde stright hair and in my dream im wearing this blue dress and you cant take your eyes off me but then in my dream i realize that me the real me in sitting on a bench how is it that you like me when im like this? and not like that? it hurts to know that you dont think of the real me as butiful as well they say i dont need you and ive come to the realization that its true i might not be butiful but i relized i dont care im butiful and it dosent take you to tell me that .then i wake up and relize that i still want your aproval so ill sit here on the bench and wait
constillation of you
boys are like stars there are millions of them but only one can make your wishes come true its that true i dont know i ve only see the black holes they leave after theyre gone so my question is will you be like the others? or will you grant me my wish? i need to know. i have to go
to number 987654331
one step ahead one step to far will i reach you i wish i could .Insted of having you on a pedistol i wish i could have you in my arms .They say i desreve you that im worthy of your time. If they saw you as i see you they would laugh at my foolish atempts. i am a mere mortal how dare i long for an angel? they would laugh they would jeer. So while i can not have you in my arms ill have you in my heart on the pedistol you deserve i wish you the best in finding your true love though i may want you all to my self i rather see you happy with her than sad with out love so ill back into the shadows and let you be because although I love you i'd rather set you free
magic 8 ball..
i dont belive in taking chances in things that have not even a slight chance in working my magic 8 ball told me that he has no romantic interest in me acutally i asked magic 8 ball does _-_- unknown middle name_ -_- have romatic feelings for me and it said NO so i took that as a no toodles
all maggie wanted was a boy
All Maggie wanted was a boyfriend.....Such a sad story really! She should have known better. She should have realized that Justin was taking advantage of her. He seemed so sweet at first. He flirted and was so nice. And then he asked her to the prom. She was unsure because she didn't know him that well. Her friends urged her to go though. They had a good enough time so that Maggie thought he was a great guy, and really started to like him One day after track practice he pecked her lightly on the cheek. She could feel the chemistry. He asked her out the next day. Although she felt something saying no, she said yes. She told her friends and they squealed and told Maggie what a cute couple they were. Their first date they went to an italian restaurant. Justin had found out that it was Maggie's favorite. He brought her a red rose with a note attached that said, "DEAR MAGGIE~ I HOPE WE WILL ALWAYS BE TOGETHER." It was sooo sweet, said her friends. They totally approved of Justin, but Maggie still felt uneasy. A few days later at school, Justin handed Maggie a small box. Maggie felt apprehensive as she opened it. It contained a silver and gold bracelet. It was beautiful. Maggie hardly knew what tosay. She let Justin kiss her, and she thanked him endlessly, but secretly she wondered why he was getting so serious so soon. The next day at school her friend Zack approached her and whispered to Maggie how much the jewelry had cost. The price was $170.00!! Maggie gasped and stared at Zack. Justin and she had only had 1 date. It scared her to think of where Justin had gotten the money for it. Because his dad had left him at an early age, Justin andhis mother were always tight on money, since it was just the two of them. She asked Justin what was going on, did he have a special reason for the gift? and he said no, but that he loved her so much. Once again her friends told her that he seemed like the sweetest guy on earth. Not to Maggie. The next week Justin came to Maggie's work, a local ice cream parlor. As her shift ended he presented her with a large bag decorated with floral patterns. Maggie made a desperate face at her employee friends and then asked Justin suspiciously what the occasion was. He replied that he simply loved her more than life. Maggie cautiously opened the bag. *Inside was a big heart pillow with a zipper that Justin told Maggie to open. She did, and found two tickets to the big concert of 98 degrees. She quickly hugged him and told him that it was great, but she didn't need all these presents. He simply said, "Yes you do. I love you more than life, and if we ever broke up, I'd kill myself and I'm not kidding. I want to marry you Maggie. I'm not proposing yet, but I will." And then he turned and drove away without another word. Maggie gasped and immediately started sobbing. She was only sixteen!!! She didn't want to think about marriage! She realized that Justin was just getting way too serious for her taste. She needed a fun and carefree boyfriend. Not someone who seemed so dependant. For the next week she avoided Justin. The concert was only two days away, and she would feel terrible if she broke up with him before it, after he spent so much money, but afterwards she was definitely dumping him. This relationship was over as far as she was concerned. At the concert Maggie put on a smile and let Justin put his arm around her but when he tried to kiss her long and passionately she made excuses that seemed very obvious, but Justin didn't see that. He only saw HER. He loved her deeply and everyone knewit. Only Maggie's best friend knew that Maggie would soon put an end to Justin's affection. The day after the concert Maggie asked Justin to go on a walk with her. Once again he was trying to be very romantic with her, but she sat him down on a bench and said, "Justin, this isn't working out. You're moving way too fast and serious for me. I'm sorry. This is...I guess this is goodbye." Justin stared helplessly at her, and for a moment she regretted her decision. A very brief moment...because then... Justin's eyes suddenly turned very fiery and hateful and he sat up very straight. He stiffly got up from the bench and then he roared at Maggie the most hurtful words ever spoken to her. She sat silently all though his verbal abuse. He cursed her and looked as though he would slap her. Then he cried and said she was all he ever wanted. And then his sadness was all over and he turned silent again just like her. His eyes were stone cold. He put his face up to hers and said, "You're going to regret this for the rest of your life." His voice was steady with anger and on impulse, He grabbed her face in his hands and said "I loved you truer than anyone else ever will, Maggie. You just watch. I'll get you for this. You broke my heart and I won't ever forget it." And then he hit her.He slapped her so hard on the face that she felt numb. She went home and saw the red handprint on her face. She didn't care. He was gone once and for all. That's what she thought. The next day at school Maggie opened her locker and saw a note pinned to the door. what? she thought. I don't ever give my combos out!!! Who could have...? She picked up the note and red it. "Dear Maggie, I was not lying when I told you that you would regretyour decision. If I were you, I'd be very very careful from now on. You broke my heart. And I won't forget it. You will pay for my pain." Want to find out what happens to Maggie?? If you send this to~~ 1-6 people~ 1 paragraph will be sent to you 6~11 people~ 1/2 the story will be sent to you 11~20 people~ The whole story!!!
crazy space adventurers
ive come to the realization that i have not stopped liking cody its just that ive become frightened of him he dosent like me but he went shopping for me and basically i think he's a vulcan gone aray those crazy vulcans when will they learn? Live long and prosper That is all!
dance your socks off
the dance was totally cool there was like 200 maybe less people but i got to slow dance with cody (2)and that was good enough for me i really wish i didnt like him sometimes then we gave him a ride home !Wish you guys could have been there i was so much fun !!Even mrs m said i was lokkin real good !
to a lost love
I dedicate this poem to my lost love and to all those who have had to suffer this sort of heart break to my lost love this is what you ment to me though i said i never loved you i always did . Tonight I can write the saddest lines. Write, for example, `The night is starry and the stars are blue and shiver in the distance.' The night wind revolves in the sky and sings. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. I loved him, and sometimes he loved me too. Through nights like this one he held me in his arms. he kissed me again and again under the endless sky. he loved me, sometimes I loved him too. How could one not have loved his great still eyes. Tonight I can write the saddest lines. To think that I do not have him. To feel that I have lost him. To hear the immense night, still more immense without him. And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture. What does it matter that my love could not keep him. The night is starry and he is not with me. This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance. My soul is not satisfied that it has lost him. My sight tries to find him as though to bring her closer. My heart looks for him, and he is not with me. The same night, whitening the same trees. We, of that time, are no longer the same. I no longer love him, that's certain, but how I loved him. My voice tried to find the wind to touch him hearing. Another's. he will be another's. As he was before my kisses. His voice, his bright body. His infinite eyes. I no longer love him, that's certain, but maybe I love him. Love is so short, forgetting is so long. Because through nights like this one he held me in his arms my soul is not satisfied that it has lost him. Though this be the last pain he makes me suffer and these the last verses that I write for him. Written byPablo Neruda words were changed
though im not supposed to talk to you
This song is dedicated to you. You know who you are. I changed some of the words, but you get the gist. This reminds me of all the good times. I myself never see us becoming true friends again . like you said just because we aren’t friends ,doesn’t mean I have to hate you. so to you .For all those times you stood by me For all the truth that you made me see For all the joy you brought to my life For all the wrong that you made right For every dream you made come true I'll be forever thankful You're the one who held me up Never let me fall You're the one who saw me through it all You were my strength when I was weak. You were my voice when I couldn't speak. You were my eyes when I couldn't see. true. I was blessed because I was friends with you.. You were always there for me The tender wind that carried me You've been my inspiration Through the lies you were the truth My world is a better place because of you You saw the best there was in me. Lifted me up when I couldn't reach. You gave me faith 'cuz you believed. You gave me wings and made me fly. I lost my faith, you gave it back to me. You said no star was out of reach. You stood by me and I stood tall. .I'm grateful for each day you gave me. Maybe I don't know that much. But I know this much is true i was happy when i was friends with you
oh that west salem dicipline
So i got called down to the student center so i walk in i ask yeah so can i see who ever call me down and they take my slip and tell me "oh Mr.Phillps is in a meeting right now"so i ask can i go back to class and theyre all like alright so i go back to class 10 mins later who should come in to take be back to see mr.phillips ? none other than rick! so every one in bio is assuming the worst .Mrs .M just high fives me and says come back soon so i get to the student center and Mr.phillps talks to me asking "how did this all start "and"so i hear you guys used to be friends" so i anser his ? a little annoyed to be pulled out of class but eh whatcha goin do bout it?so he asks me if i have any refrence to these "threats"and so i show him my site and he says well i stop interving because who ever starts the next fight will go down meaning suspention so stop interving because who ever starts the next fight will go down meaning suspention so i says "im alright with that" later i come home and tell my brother and dad whats up because i keep my family updated about my situationmy dad says avoid her my brother says sock her in the face then my dad says avoid her but if she starts a fight deck her then punch her in the stomache then repetaedly sock her then he says if you get in a fight its all or nothing i dont want you to get in a fight and be the only one hurt .I my self am not really looking for any kind of confrintation and will aviod her at all cost
bad memories
to you since you have no name i say this to you and only you you mean nothing to me we were friends but hey it dosent matter to me any more your name is now synnonomus with the word odio . since you are no longer worthy of my conpanionship you can look that one up. I thought they were wrong about you i stood up for you silly me i didnt see you for what you really are .Right now im wondering why i didnt choose konrad over you heck i hated that guy with a passion but heck he was a better friend than you ever were. Yea i could call you the same names you call me but your not even worth my time . I could treaten you and your friends but you arnt worth my time im happy that i finally got to see you for what you really are .
Its raining babies
MY cosin is born !!!!She's a premi oh im so excited any way my main message today is to some one whom i havent talked to sinceerly in a long time and some one i feel ive been over looking trough this time of war some one who was a true friend and i hurt not pureposly so to this person i wuold like to say im sorry and would like to offer a seat in THE AMIGOS/AMIGAS list and that person is.........Sarah Dunsworth if you execpt this invitation to be on my list you will get my undying trust and also be told all you would like to know about me the list is a short list but i would be very happy if you excepted my invitation (dont worry kc ,kg ,amy,cody ....ect ect you are already on the list)so SARAH will you be my Amiga?
fork in the road or was it a spoon?
yeah so mrs vandreal says to everyone but me that advanced theatere is no longer (huh?)well now i have come to a wood with two paths to choose shall i move my econ class to 4th period and get creative writing with helen cody and matt? or shall i stay in econ with amy chealsea eliott julie abe devo ? hum well i thinking cody cody cody but amy is what i have left of kacie amy and audrey What to do what to do
My co capitan
yeah so kacie visited me today and that makes me so happy my life was crappy this week i only have one class with sarah chelsea was gone to las vegus jilla and the other chealsea and amy were the people dragging me through the day but when kacie came over it was all good up in the hood (other contributing parties were involved matt cody emma lucas tim helen colin sarah ali mrs.m ect ect )in video production Ali amy and i are filming a dance extravaganza and its going to blow everyone's mind!!!!!@!!!Also this friday's Gulttiny bowl and i will have one of these 2 partners cody!!or Pooleon because dang that boy can put it down !!!well i have to go sleep or dance or csckhsbcikasbciy ether way adios
KACIES FAN CLUB
Kacie you need to come back to west i miss you terribly you amy and cody sarah and other contributing parties were my only reasons for staying at west and now that i only have lunch with cody i only have amy and she misses you terribly oh and helen she asks about you to and video production isnt the same without you!!!!!and now im in your old math class!! Although im sad about you leaving im happy i stayed theres this new boy and man is he hotti think im going to go back to north if your not coming back and amy is thinking about going back to south and what about our plans for 2 lunch mondays?? aaaaaahhhhhh my high school life means nothing and what about weezer's anniversery??? our plans for v-day my alligators miss your alligators!! im going to go sulk for my loss of my co capitn capition oh capiton i am your capiton(sob)(sob)(sob)
bowling team spelled backward is chess team
hey hey hey amy is the best best better than the rest!!audrey is the mean shean kacies is the get you girl whoo put that togther and you have the BOWLING TEAM!!!
dreams
my dreams of you are wisked away by the world say you'll wait for me if not here then in the real world wait for me because i know you were sent for me and we were ment to be can you feel it too I know you do this dream is so perfect would i trade an eterinty of this dreams for one real kiss of your lips or one whiff of your scent yes yes a thousand times yes
kisses
jb and cody didnt kiss you mo fo that was a error in typeing from bear i would never kiss cody (HE KISSED ME)
my knight in pink converse
hey hey hey the first time in 3 months i was actually going to show up to biology and my alarm didint go off !!!i was going to cry!!!! then kacie went to the dentist and got 4SHOTS of novicane and we went around to see who would punch her in her face so we went to zacks blah blah blah then i decided we should go to cody's and i was like i m not going to the door so kc starts honking her horn 6 times for every letter in my name then amy got out of the car saying she would come with me and they tryed locking me out but i was to quick then i yanked zack to the door with me because kc parked in his driveway and wouldnt leave until i went up to his door then we rang the bell and zack tryed running but i had a hold of him so he dragged me out into their yard i slipped and i fell on my butt as his sister was walking up the steps real great then she went inside and came out saying that he was pissed at us so i started walking to amy's house because they wouldnt let me in the car the all of a sudden cody comes to the door and says audrey !do you want to come in i was like uh ok!!he asked me if i wanted nachos i was like ok so we started talking i told him how i slipped then his little bro came down and was like who was honking?? then he's like yeah ill punch kc now we had already asked him twice if he wanted to punch her and he said no so cody his little sis and me all went outside and kacie let him punch her and he did it hard then cody's little sis wanted to do it and kacie was like uummmm ok and cody's little sis hit kacie 2ce as hard
cody!
yeah so its gold its gold its gold its gold its soild gold tommorrw for the first time in 3 months im going to go back to biology even though im going to to get yelled at ehhh what you going to do about it ???on a different note i spent mostly all weekend with cody and kacie and amy (CODY!!!!!!!)(SHRIEK)(SIGH)yay and i also sleped on him and he layed on me
eyes
i love you look into my eyes the the truth shines through we us were ment to be im sure just you and me were perfect because your perfect im in love you . that im happy when im around you im glad ive relized no matter how much i deny it the truth of your love radiates through.
that hyde is so hott
hey yalll you sould all watch that 70's show because im obssed with eric forman aka cody!!!!!
all i seem to do is apolgize
I would like to apoligize to my brother marcus and tell all those people with web sites start writing im boerd!!! i'd also like to comment on lucas's new glasses they look really good on him and they almost make up for getting a hair cut and lucas if your reading this im glad were friends again!!!!Marcus im sorry for slapping you in choir!!!Andrew swab boy hehehehehehehheh
Sorry skittles
I'd like to publicly apoligize for calling lucas gay to the point of him getting upset and for that i am truely sorry i know personally myself would get annoyed so id like to say im sorry lucas and a side bar i have gotten lots of fan mail because of a certain somthing i have said on others web sites and in anser to your question i will never tell you truthfully who is the mystery man and also side bar i do not want to date marcus so stop saying i should if you have any questions or comments email me at hottkitty2@yahoo.com i will be awaiting your email
another reason to hate humanity
well my friend's car was stolen this week and since she's my majior transporter that sucks and who ever stole her car should get shot in the knee caps so if your out there theif you will suffer!!!!!!!!! jerk!!!!!!
the thrill of the hunt!
why
cant you see your eyes touture me? cant you see that your arms call me you dont love me?it dosent matter i need you your perfect that might scare you but its true the less you want me the more i want you why for the thrill of the hunt of course love cant comepte with rejection
lowly freshman
biznich this stupid freshman that likes lucas is like now stalking me i just want to punch her in her stupid face I DONT LIKE LUCAS i wanted to shout at her for being stupid!!!!!!but i took pity on her turns out i shouldnt have! oh well this is what you get for being nice to freshman eh
spit in everybody's soup
love is just a game games have rules rules are ment to be broken so why dont we are we scared of being ridculed? Or are we afraid of getting hurt? since its so close to valintines day take a risk ask that specail someone you wont know till you try and whats the worst that could happen they'll say no so what life goes on more power to the people who arnt afraid of rejection peace out
VALINTINES DAY SUCKS
hey everybody today was pretty freaky i ve come to the relization that THe GUY ive been lusting for isnt the right guy for me. also for the first time in many many a year i only like one guy and right now im not sure if he's "perfect" for me he's just some one to fill the love less void that is my life and for the first time in lo these many years i might be single for valintines day and that scares me not just because i wont get flowers and candy and a kiss on the cheek but the fact that no one thinks of me more than a friend and that might sound needy or shallow but sometimes for some people one person can be the reason to wake up in the morning to live another day to even come to school ive come to the realization i dont want to be alone it might be a stupid holiday invented by greeting card companies so for you who have your speacil someone make plans be happy have fun (peace out)
NEW YEARS
megan was suppose to come over but her parents wouldnt let her then i was going to go to the church dance and i really havent been home for like the last 2 weeks and when i am home i lock myself in my room so i dont know why they care if im here or not because they never see me anyway as one of my new year resolutions i have decided to tell all my true thoughts about people and be more out going and if i say any thing that offends you probly desreve it or im just upset wih the world so kiss my tan puerto rican buttocks
dating bahumbug
for all of those who have been paying attion to my love life more than i have you know that i have like this one guy for over four months now yet he's one of those pesky ones that just seem to get away even though i say that i would never date him due to caring for him tomuch to break such a good relationship like ours up i just can not handle just being friends any more i want him to be more than a friend i want every girl that hits on him to know that he's taken and he's mine and cause them to cry in shame because they foolishly tryed to gain somthing they could never have but also im torn by two others who in secret i have lusted for yet i know they could never be mine which makes them more desirable yet im so close to attaining my first guy that im torn between 3
you will be mine!
ah yes i actually got legolas as my ideal mate the first time around but i love gollom he's cute in a helpless little kid kind of way so if any guys want to win my heart you have to act like gollum and look like legolas and also know some elfish
Twin Towers
legolas why must you be so hott and sexy !!!dwarf why must you be so funny? because you two and gollam were the only good thingings in the movie and the movie was 3 hours!!!!!gollam you weird personalitys and you remind me of megan legolas so hott need i say m,ore you remind me of marcus yet he'll never be as hott as you!!dwarf you are so pooleon and he'll grow up to act like you!! sam is allways hungary it reminds me of sarah gandalf weirdo denfinatly kacie i my self am frodo because i want to be !!!any ways every one thats coming to my party must bring a kiddnapped guest !!or you cant come in!!!! so call and rsvp your kiddnapy so every one dosent bring the same kiddnappy later
Kidnapping what fun!!
hey hey what is up all you cool cats and chicks im back from working in the gorge ha i survied but i think i now have rabies and tenis oh well i am so having a kidnapping party friday im going to kidnap 2 of my friend bring them to my house and have all my other friends jeer at them for being kidnapped sound fun call me if you want to come!!
who are you?
i think our choir concert went well last night why was pooleon so nice to us? i think he was on drugs any way i had an embarrassing moment scott got a hair cut exactly like his brother so they now look like twins so when brain scotts brother walked by i punched him in the arm not knowing it was brain so when he walked by and i relized scott was wearing all black i felt realy stupid oh well im going to go dream now of my perfect life were i dont do and say dumb a*s hole things so adios
she said condoms!!
my favorite thing about school has deninetly got to be yearbooks you get to write whatever you want in them and you can also stick condoms in them every one should go to the tenacouis d web site it is smack daddy and pooleon if your reading this you are so not pimp daddy yea who is this choir buddie and why havent they written in the longest time? did they lose the courage? to write well what ever was your motive im glad Im bored so adou adou parting is such sweet sorrow
Bad grades/ bad school
for all those who care i might not be going back to north after all my grades are low and also my best friend attends west and also the love of my life attends west so after all my hard work and persation i still might be a titan this weeks b_days helene chelsea last weeks birthdays sarah and andrew happy b_day yall
manic mom
hey take that back about what i said about my mom she's really moody she yelled at me for having bad grades when even my dad didnt then she found out i came home during lunch for 50 cents and she totally gets on me about that she's like how come you left school and what wre you doing and dont get into teenagers cars and yadda yaddda yaddda im starting to miss the empty void of quiet and peace someone save me of my heck hole of a life then i called the guy i like chicken out of asking him out because i finally figured hey if he already liked me like that he would have asked me out already but then again im dense so it takes me 3 months to figure out he dosent like me romanticly
mama
hey every body im so happy my mom is back whoo hoo and i am so close to asking the guy of my dreams out yeeah and marcus finally gave me my watch back and now offically on weds its now slurpee day and we changed what we were going to do for our music video insted of titanic wre going to be doing wonder boy by tenacouis d come fly with me fly
OH lalalal
hey sorry for not signing up on my own web site my internet sucks monkey butt any way i threw out my old boy list now i have 3 new boys on my lust list so watch out for my lust object as for the old list they died adois (except for donnie)
stabby mcgee
every body lucas dosent like me like that he thinks of me as a friend shmegan even asked him and he said no so therefore whoever this choir buddie can confess so i can stab them in the eye
poems of the heart
If I could catch a rainbow I would do it Just for you And share with you Its beauty On the days You're feeling blue If I could build a mountain You could call Your very own A place to find serenity A place to be alone If I could Take your troubles I would toss them In the sea But all these things I'm finding Are impossible for me I cannot build a mountain Or catch a rainbow fair But let me be What I know best A friend That's always there This is a Hug Certificate!! Send One to All of Your Friends You Think Deserve A Hug. Send This to Your Friends Including The Person Who Sent It To You!
lucas? whats wrong with you people!!
hello hello choir buddie why are you so involved in my life your really creepy!Every one just forget lucas its never going to happen he dosent like me and i dont like him any way thers nothing between me and him so just quit and plus whats it to you people do you guys really need to see me going out with someone to make you happy? get your own love lifes plus im already scoping guys at north out!Plus JILLA is leaving at the end of the year this our last days with her lets make them memrible for her and us jilla if your reading this i knew this day would come and when the time comes for you to leave you'll always know you have a place in my heart and so does annalisa and elise and melina and the babbel family and R.I.P TRAVIS you will always be in my heart forever nomatter how far peace out brohams
duh.........
hello hello i dont have any thing to really say except somebody email me!!!and also by this time next week ill be picking classes for north ah yes ill be back on my throne of glory although i have grown an attachment to some of these westie freaks and dorks such as pooleon shmegan christain/kg,kacie ,sarah,marcus,freshman,donnie,matt,timmy,lucas,andrew,jonesy bonsey,helen,sarah, and etc and i will miss these people and if ive left you out its because i love you twice as much bye bye fo now and when i go back to north i still will at least have a oncea week posting of my current events
HAPPY THANKSGIVING!
happy thanksgiving every body yesterday shmegan and i walked to my house from school then we walked across the bridge down town then we walked to lucas's house abd i couldnt rember which house was his so i guessed and i got it right the first try but he wasnt homethen we walked to the bus station got on two more buses and when we got to my house i felt like a parapalegic well today i have to go to my aunts house and were staying the night !...well while im gone write alot in my guest book so i can come back and know what you guys have been up tocatch you on the filp side compadres
shudder at the thought!
my brother is yelling at me right now about music and he's really making me mad he sucks but right now and this saterday is movie night and lucas better show up or ill shoot him in the leg today was a crappy half day marcus didnt even show up which makes me really mad and where is pooleon the last 2 days? i would said he's probaly with a girl but then again its pooleon so well im going to leave now from the dark hole i crawled out of
CHOIR BUDDY IS DOOMED
lucas is so shunned. he's in exile for he is banished and he will be banished forever and who ever choir buddie is your banished in exile also i will never ever go out with lucas ever done and done
must die!
as soon as i learn how to use this conflabbed computer ill get my poll on here and if i cant figure it out ill probly just set my computer on fire so see yeas later gater( just a flesh wound)
BETTY WETS HERSELF!!!
hahhah marcus smells like seventeen magizine. everyone that didn't come to megan's party should get a beat down, but that is only my opinion. Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha, ha!!!!! also, people i am not going out with lucus, no matter what you say. 'cause i am not your paper doll, i'm at least a betty-wets-herself. and its none of your bizzzzzzz wether i like him or not. and plus, even if i did, i would never tell you. you mofos!!!!! poop on you!!!!!
Imprava_java
im in class and im really board and if lucas is reading this im going to north no matter what you say old man bad time for bonzo everyone should go to the improvajava tomorrow night to see me becase with matt on my team we cant lose
I DONT LIKE SKITTLES
a girl on the bus asked me if lucas and i were going out and i was like eww gross now i kinda feel bad its not that i dont like lucas its i dont think of him like that. Its like that girl from hey arnold says i like him but i dont like him like him! did you guys see pooleon's hair he should so get a mullet and dye it pink why is it so cold here in oregon?why why why why why !!!!!!!!my buttocks are frozen
Thank you
hi im back thanks to all those who wrote to me and to anser your question yes im fine im not going to go insane and start killing people
Bye
if you guys want to contact me while im gone my email is hottkitty2@yahoo.com ill be coming back next sunday with my brother and possible my dad if not ill be coming back by my self i have to go were leaving in 10 mins for pdx bye
Abuela
hello my abuela(grandma) died today and we'll probly be going to puerto rice for 2 weeks or it might just be my mom who goes but i thought id let you know so you dont think im snubbing you guys this has been a really hard year for me with the death of travis my non realted brother who was practically just an non adopted brother and now my abuela(grandma)and every time the phone rings and the person at my end of the phone is crying its bad news and i can feel it im going to go write in my guest book even if i leave because i will check it even if i do go to Puerto rico for a while and even if i dont.
TENACOUS D
kyle took a bullet for me now ive got to rock for three kg and me dont forget about tenacous d every one lucas is not stalking me im sure of it plus even if he is and or was whats it to you people !!!!GAH
go audrey its your birthday......
i got my hat!!shmegan bought it 4 me!!!!!!!! konrad is a mangina and we called him and said we hated him and he called us back and asked for me oh no im being stalked have to book it adios
Bandiggity time
everyone buy a ticket to improvajava ill be in it hopefully. its on 21 22 thurs day and fri its 5 doolor for students and 7dollors for adults its like who's line is it any way but its 4 teams and the points do count!kg loves jeff every one should call audrey beacouse im bored and i like to talk alot meg call me so we can plan anti snow ball
i do love those peanutbutter m&ms
poor poor ryan so many people have a crush on you and now sparky does too hahahahh hey all those who want to attend my antisnowball gala are welcome to do so but call me so we can plan stuff well im tried and skittles yea sorry for calling you gay ....
whats the mamma?......
yeah so school sucks and i hate english class and cant wait to leave this heck hole they call oregon!this place is more boring than a bag of beans. i need sleep!!!
not for minors
im so ready to go back to north this all happened for me because wonderboy has come to save me!!thier is one person that makes me want to stay away from north and thats konrad or as i like to call him conf@g but thats my opinon because he's a back stabbing biznich
ryan has a butt?
ryan ill talk about your a*s if i feel like it and any one else's for that matter ! and plus the xmen suck its all about the nija turtles not only are they ninjas but thier turtles plus xmen is a stupid name because there is girls in that group so buah and yes osh does have small juvosaccording to smegan yet she obsessed all saterday about him but i have no room to mock i was obsessing over some one else and also the guy from hot topic because he is a hotty hott hot hott
where are all the ho ho's?
kg's party was off the hizzle !!and those guys at hot topic are hotty hot hott hots !!! one of them said if i made him a kilt he'd buy me a monkey beanie and i do plan to make him that kilt! i cant wait till semester when i leave the heck hole i like to call west and go back to north!!!!!!!yayayayayyaya go aud go aud!!!!
PARTY HARDY!
yea so im going to a party this week end and its going to crap my pants in excite ment!!! its me and k g !!
HALLOWEEN!
halloween is dead or so ive been told what is the actual cut off limit to when you have to stop being a child and have to be grown up? I want to know !! and when did everyone suddenly become punk? or hard core because oviously i missed the bandwagon!pet peeve of today people who are posers tommorrow's pet peeve people who think they are suberban oreos thats all i have to say for now also i DONT LIKE RYAN!!!!!!!NOMATTER WHAT YOU SAY!!! HAPPY HALLO'S eve
ANTI SNOBALL!!!
snoball is rapidly approching and do you have a date if not or if your not going you should attend your nearest anti-snow ball party !!anti snow ball is for those "special" people such as my self who wont ask any one to snow ball and even if i did would have a horredus time because i hate dresses and the whole look at me im with so and so atmosphere and the fact my mom wont let me go on a date till im 16 or she'll disone me so for now ill stick with my anti snow ball and insted of amitting that i cant go just say i dont want to (if you go to ponderosa and you order one platter and stick to it you'll never try the buffet)
so dumb why oh why
hi to all those who have waited fo a new entry yes yes i do think ryan is cute maybe even he might have a cute butt on the other hand he's stupider than a wildebeast why wont the perfect guy show up for me!!!!!my life is screwed!!and ryan has the whole collection of xmen every thing including underwear and he wears the tighty whities every day execpt when he sleeps then thats a matter for the birthday suit club
decisons decisons
hey its been a while im trying to dicide on whither i should go to the ridicules concert or go to a quad stake dance at my church im really leaning toward the church dance but none of my friends look like thier going and for once i dont want to be a loner anyways i went to see the duct tape guys at the fair grounds it was ausome!! i bought two of thier books a movie a pin a bumper sticker it was very chess and my condolences go out to marcus who has posion oak
And number one is?
hello hello and welcome to my daily bash of people and things in genaral i like cheese in a can but not many other people find it tasty or amusing for that fact oh and heres a list of things and people i hate today 1 nick johnson 2 ryan puilain 3 people who mock chess 4 mr jones 5 stinky feet 6 people who wake me up from my nap 7 American government with mr odeil 8 people who mock puerto ricans 9 people who think they are reverse oreos (white people who act black) 10 lycra and spandex
Whats going on?
butt hole man man man i hate you so much! yet your a cool guy how is that ? somtimes you can be the nicest guy in the world other time i want to sharpen someyhing and stabb you in the eye with it!!For all those who are lost there is one found for all those who are loved there is 10 hated for every100 pounds of cheese made there is one more lactose intolernt person. STOP THINK HAVE YOU DONE ANY THING NICE FOR SOME ONE LATELY?? IF NOT DO BE especally nice to audrey! because her life sucks and she needs all the good times she can get!!!bon jour
aplogy
im sorry for those i have offended not all bums are bad and will steal your teeth
bums bums every where!!
i was gone for maybe 15 mins and when i return every one that stayed home and even the neghibors are telling me that two bums tryed breaking in to my house and my first reaction was yea bums so where are the tooth faries but then two policemen drive up and it hits me and i was like whaaa ? who would want to break in to my getto lean to of a house? only a bum and or my stalker or possible butt hole man man man then it hit me we need to educate our bums better if they cant pillage correctly what is this world coming to? gah (i shake my fist in their stupidity) pasango!!!!BUMS BUMS BUMS BUMSBUMS BUMSBUMS BUMS BUMS BUMS theyll steal your teeth if you give them half a chance ...
just jabber
hello hello suprise suprise ryan wasnt ajerk today in fact he was almost unjerk like for awhile megan gets off grounding friday so im going to spend the night at her house its going to be a bangdiggty time
the locker room
hello my other page has been lost in cyber space so to all the new fans a fine howdy doo to all the hangers on welcome back!!
